Anyone ever been stuck in a situation where they're working at have no idea what they want to do with their life's? Im only 22 but still I've been going the depression of like man I really need to do something with my life I need to make lots of money so I can actually be free and do what I want. Watching all these YouTube/ media stars have really carved a fantasy in life where all of these young people especially this generation have the feeling where they need to be like them right? Or is it just me. Even then I wouldn't mind the money.
It's not like I'm broke or anything I guess I shouldn't be complaining. I have a good paying job my girl friend has a job and we both tend to split everything when it comes to big purchases. Mostly trips.
For some reason I get into this deep depression about thinking of death which freaks me out so much I can't sleep at night and I gotta be on my phone till I pass out. Which then makes me think later on like huh why shouldn't we experience life how we want. You only have one... well one depending on what you believe in. Still going back to the point of being able to see what the world has to offer. As in traveling wherever you want. I know thats a dream but why should someone have to work in an office for 8 hours a day 5 days a week just waiting for the 2 days they have freedom. I know people will say oh well just work hard and grind for years then you can, MAYBE. I'm just like why can't you just enjoy life for the time that you have. Maybe thats just my far fetched dream that I've had for a long time.
Ive just been frustrated with myself. Wanting something more. Wanting a life where I can take care of my whole family and show them the world. But I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I don't have that drive that focus on something that I love to do passionately.
I heard that if you do something you hate for long time you'll be able to figure out what you want to do with your life. That has not happened yet surprisingly.
Maybe tomorrow I'll figure something out.
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